Hoppo

I am in pain. My whole body is screaming. I feel like I've been hit by a lorry.

Did my first PPW training session with Ed Ferris yesterday in Newport which was really intense. I'm glad I've been working out - I wouldn't have survived it otherwise. Still he pushed us really far and I learned a lot. Next session is 16th April and I'm looking forward to it.

Just before Christmas last year I had an email out of the blue from an ex girlfriend of mine, Clare. I went out with her some time in 2002 for a few month but it all ended a bit messily. At the time it appeared to be all my fault but certain things kept cropping up which just didn't seem right. Putting them all together I can see I was being taken for a ride while having it look like I was the bad guy. Basically double standards.

As a result I was left with a lot of unanswered questions. Anyway about 18 months ago I stumbled upon her profile on Friends Reunited and thought I'd extend her an olive branch as there's no point in holding grudges forever. I heard nothing for more than a year and out of the blue she replied to it in december. She seemed surprised to hear from me but seemed quite cordial.

Seems like she had some unanswered questions too - it didn't take long for her to ask me something which looks like it had been on her mind for a few years too. I had no problem in answering it - I went in to great detail too.

And then.......nothing. Didn't hear a thing from her. In my last email I asked her a few things about how life is treating her now but she didn't reply.

I'd forgotten about all that until saturday afternoon when I went to my parents' house and they asked me to clear out their caravan as they might be going away at the end of the month and I found my scrapbook of old photos and I found the only picture in existence of Claire and I, it was taken in a photobooth in Merthyr. It made me wonder if she was still about.....and it also reminded me of some of the unanswered questions I had.

I emailed her over the weekend and asked if she was still around and this morning I had a reply basically telling me she didn't see any point in carrying on with our correspondence.

See what I mean? Back in december she was happy enough to chat to me because she had questions for me, but as soon as she had them answered she doesn't feel the need to continue the chat.

Double standards. I guess some things just never change.

Funnily enough, Natasha doesn't live too far from her - "about 26 minutes" or so I'm told. Wouldn't it be fun if I bumped in to her, no doubt I'll be accused of stalking! This of course would be regardless of the fact that my girl lives in the area....