Jaguar

I've always had trouble in letting go of the past. I'm pretty happy with life at the moment so why the past keeps popping up is a mystery.

Been chatting today to a girl (she's actually a 31 year old woman now) who I used to have a relationship with when I was 15. Looking back she was offering me so much love and affection and being the idiot I was, I had no idea and ended up hurting her very much by my ignorance of her feelings.

For some unknown reason she insisted on staying friends with me even after our messy split - and I'm glad she did. She stayed in touch with my parents and finally worked around my stubborness. We've stayed in contact ever since and we've met up a few times. Funnily enough I wouldn't go with her again. She's very beautiful and very sexy but it just wouldn't feel right. In any case we are both very different people to who we were back in in 1989.

AfanFM goes live in a few months, in fact at the end of the summer. I really need to concentrate on that. In fact I have a lot of things I need to be concentrating on. PPW is another. I'm determined to get in to all this. I've also got a trip up Ben Nevis that I need to arrange.

I need a PA.....