What just happened today??
Had a loooong think in work today. Sod actual 'work' (I mean, what right do they have to expect me to do the job for which I am paid), I needed to get my head around a lot of stuff. All about last night. And my life.
I'm Russ Burt. I'm wearing the name like a badge.
Burt is my birthname. In 1997 I decided to change my name by deed poll. No, I won't say why.
Last night I came home. I was with my family. Enough of my mother's side, the ones I've been brought up with. The ones who treat me like an outcast because of squabbles which I had no part in. The ones who I feel no affinity with. The ones who have created me to be so one-sided. I don't want any of that.
I want my father's family. The Burts. My birthright. My heritage. I want to be ME for the first time in so many years. Russ David was a creation. A nothingness with no reality. He never really existed, even though I did everything legitimately.
So November 1st 2006 sees me 'return' after a 9 year absence. The difference now of course is my name actually means something to me and like I said, I'm wearing it like a badge. I was going to be the last of the Burts and the family line would have ended with me and there's no way I'd desecrate it like that.
Am I being dramatic? You might think so but I really don't care. As a great man once said, "You must show no mercy…nor have any belief whatsoever in how others judge you…for your greatness will silence them all". Am I saying I'm great? Nah, far from it. But my loyalty, belief and faith in my family will silence everyone.
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